You Are Not Here by Samantha Schutz (author) (US edition)

Love. Grief. Death. Recovery. When tragedy strikes, secret lovers Annaleah and Brian are separated forever. It’s never easy to lose the one you love, but it’s even worse when you can’t even grieve over them. Annaleah and Brian had something so special, they didn’t mind keeping their relationship secret. But when Brian suddenly dies, Annaleah is heartbroken. She finds herself isolated – and while everyone else can mourn Brian openly, she must keep her love for him hidden. How can she cope with losing her love when she can’t even acknowledge it?

“The death of someone you love will define you in ways small and large. It can defeat you. Or deliver you. You Are Not Here is a story about ultimate deliverance, and one you’ll not soon forget.” Ellen Hopkins